Letters to God

what if i tried to stop sleeping for the rest of my life
or cried for the next three years or so
i would just love to feel relief
and have a routine that i could stick to
a set of tasks that were meant to be done every day
that would mean that i would not have to think
but that is not human nature is it?
you would know..
anyway, something that would make my life easier
and not so unstable would be nice
i could understand you not wanting to consent
after i was so mean to you
ignoring your existence
not believing in Jesus
and all that other stuff
a..
thank you for listening...
or rather reading really cause lately
i have not been doing so much talking
only sleep typing..
Z.z