sadness.

things can never come back to what they were.
there will be experiences, that will stay with you.
there will be lost and forgotten ones as well.

even though you try you cannot ever go back.
there is only the present,
because the past is already behind.
and the future is not certain.

unfortunately
once lost is lots forever.

"Here is the deepest secret nobody knows. Here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows higher than soul can hope or mind can hide. And this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart... I carry your heart, I carry it in my heart."
from the movie Candy (2006)

Corpus Christi Carol

He bear her off, he bear her down
He bear her into an orchard ground
Lu Li Lu Lay
Lu Li Lu Lay
The falcon hath bourne my mate away

And in this orchard there was a hold
That was hanged with purple and gold
And in that hold there was a bed
And it was hanged with chords of red

Lu Li Lu Lay
Lu Li Lu Lay
The falcon hath bourne my mate away

And on this bed there lyeth a knight
His wound is bleeding day and night
By his bedside kneeleth a maid
And she weepeth both night and day

Lu Li Lu Lay
Lu Li Lu Lay
The falcon hath bourne my mate away

By his bedside standeth a stone
Corpus Christi written thereon

'.'.'. by ~auchentoshan on deviantART

land of the dead
land of the lost
land of the time
that itself forgot

as nepazistu situ draugu.

no one to by ~Moonfant on deviantART

Something about us

it might not be the right time
i might not be the right one
but there's something about us I want to say
cause there's something between us anyway

i might not be the right one
it might not be the right time
but there's something about us I've got to do
some kind of secret I will share with you

i need you more than anything in my life
i want you more than anything in my life
i'll miss you more than anyone in my life
i love you more than anyone in my life


by Daft Punk

surprises

don't you just love it when you start watching a random
movie and one of your favourite songs comes up on the
soundtrack.
or when you get a package full of candy
or a letter from an old friend saying how he misses you
a day that starts off with a horrible morning but later
turns into the best day of your life
meeting random people in the street
finding money in your coat pocket
coming home after a long day and finding dinner all ready for you on the table
...

Letters to God

what if i tried to stop sleeping for the rest of my life
or cried for the next three years or so
i would just love to feel relief
and have a routine that i could stick to
a set of tasks that were meant to be done every day
that would mean that i would not have to think
but that is not human nature is it?
you would know..
anyway, something that would make my life easier
and not so unstable would be nice
i could understand you not wanting to consent
after i was so mean to you
ignoring your existence
not believing in Jesus
and all that other stuff
a..
thank you for listening...
or rather reading really cause lately
i have not been doing so much talking
only sleep typing..
Z.z

relief. relief. relief
that's what i want to feel for the rest of my life,
the best emotion ever!