Letters to God

what if i tried to stop sleeping for the rest of my life
or cried for the next three years or so
i would just love to feel relief
and have a routine that i could stick to
a set of tasks that were meant to be done every day
that would mean that i would not have to think
but that is not human nature is it?
you would know..
anyway, something that would make my life easier
and not so unstable would be nice
i could understand you not wanting to consent
after i was so mean to you
ignoring your existence
not believing in Jesus
and all that other stuff
a..
thank you for listening...
or rather reading really cause lately
i have not been doing so much talking
only sleep typing..
Z.z

relief. relief. relief
that's what i want to feel for the rest of my life,
the best emotion ever!

Falymi

My sad nights are sadder without you, looking over my shoulders, peeking around the corners, spying on me through the door, listening to me going to bed and silently sighing for darker nights and lighter stars,

I am

I am
angry
sad
frustrated
needy
craving
desperate
compassionate
outraged
ironic
on the verge of tears.

qoute

Diena, kuri prasideda kaip pasaka, o veliau tesiasi ir tesiasi, tarsi tai butu muzika, nors jau vakaras ar kiti metai. ~Sigute Ach

i

tamsoje dangus
po dienos debesu
atskleidzia turtus
tau svieciantys
zvaigdynai ir
naktines varnos
pasakoja senu
pasauliu istorijas
tu galvojai, kad naktis
nieko verta, ne diena
bet aiskiau matyt
tamsoje, kai sapnai
vietoje debesu plaukia ir
gali pabandyti
atspeti, kuris sapnas
kieno.

ii

mano senos akys zvelgia is tylios
tavo sapno dienos

pavieniai knygu puslapiai skraido
tavo namu kambariuos ir palinkes
mastai kodel negalejome rinkt ir
klijuoti tu lapu kartu

mano melynos rasalo rankos klijuoja
istorijas ant grindu ir staiga
suprantu, kad tas sapnas ne tavo,
o mano

random

love
little
disappointment
learning
wealth
ebony
dinner
life
receptor
love
origin
evil
jerk

?

but then again what is success without failure
happiness without sadness
night without day

sadness

sad really..
midnight shopping in a huge empty store
clouds up in the sky and wind
little windows looking out upon the old city
silent sobs you hear on the other side of the world.

gaze

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